“he clearly has the hots for you”

27Oct09

(title courtesy of one of my best friends.)

i was planning on writing a brief history about me and diet cranberry juice‘s relationship today per he’s been coming up a lot in conversation, but there was a slight change in plans when dcj decided to randomly ask me out on a date today.

and he was serious.

to keep it brief, there are a few things you need to know about mine and dcj’s history:

-i’ve known him since i was 15

-we kissed once drunkenly in atlantic city about two years ago at seven year itch‘s birthday. the only reason we kissed is because i wanted him to “save me” from being molested by syi. ironically syi also kissed me that night and it was the beginning of two constant years of hooking up.

-oh yeah, syi is one of dcj’s best friends

-dcj comes in and out of my life when he doesn’t have a gf. he knows how i feel about this and i’ve learned to except it

-he normally dates girls who are younger than him with little self-confidence and he belittles them. i am none of those things

-our relationship is based on joking and flirting. we’ve been acting the same way towards each other for 10 years

but today at 3:09 pm, it all changed.

this would be the perfect opportunity to do a good ‘ol cut and paste of our gchat conversation, but it’s too long. the jist – he plain and simple asked me out on a date. i thought, for obvious reasons, he was joking. we always joke about this kind of stuff. he proceeded to try to convince me that 1) he was serious and 2) that we should go on a date… for the next three hours… and then for another two hours through text messages.

i didn’t want to use the “n” word (that would being “no”) because even a bitch like me has a heart. but i also didn’t want to give him the wrong impression. i kept dodging his questions or would not answer for a few minutes or would make up some weird excuse like “i don’t want to be your rebound chick,” but nothing worked. i’ll give him that – the boy is persistent.

this just proves that guys and girls can’t be just friends. and that was always our thing! besides our brief kiss, we (or at least i) prided ourselves on just always being bffs. i should have seen it coming. there were warning signs last week when he told me that i was awesome. i whole heartedly believed at that time that he was just being a good friend. today he told me that yes he was being a good friend, but that he was also inferring that he liked me.

we went out to see paranormal activity and get drinks on saturday night. i paid for myself. it wasn’t a date. we’ve done that 1,000 times before. but when he drove me back to my car at the movie theater he asked if i wanted to make out and i quickly said no. but again, he’s always been saying that stuff to me jokingly. did he mean it on saturday night? blech.

and there is the syi factor. dcj does not know the extent of what went on between syi and i. no one does. it’s really no one’s business. and i realize guys don’t tend to care about this kind of stuff, but honestly, would dcj really want to go out with a girl that syi told he loved not that long ago? (more on that at another time.)

i’m not too sure where to go from this. do i want to go on a date with him? absolutely not. am i attracted to him? nope. (dcj claims we’re attracted to each other mentally and physically.) do i feel like at the end of all this i will have to go on a date with him simply based on peer pressure? yep. did he basically f**k everything up today by asking me out? sure. is he going to try to pretend that everything will be normal tomorrow? yes. will i think it is? hell no.

(ps: yes i realize a date is no big deal, but i don’t want to open a can of worms when i know nothing will come out of it. we’ve been friends for too long to have it come down to this.)

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